LISTENING!

"Do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth?!?"...words made famous by actor Chris Tucker in RUSH HOUR sequels!...but also the topic for this brief blog...In a nutshell, a lot of things being said, written, and promoted that spread nothing but negativity...if you take the time to put that energy into a more positive vibe, we'd all be better off!...folks need to realize that what they say and how they say it...are more than just words..."Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof."...marinate on that!...but more importantly, I am more concerned about those that have "those words" said of them....WE HAVE THE POWER TO DISMISS THAT NEGATIVITY!!!...JUST BECAUSE THEY SAY IT WITH CONVICTION...DOESN'T MAKE IT SO!!!...there will always be those naysayers, critics, mean spirited folks. How we react to what is being said can make or break that stronghold!..."squash it" if you will....Understand too, that you are not validated by someone else's words, opinion, impression of YOU!...understanding who you are and what your abilities, capabilities AND potential are, is absolutely PRICELESS!...and let not "those words" INFLUENCE/ALTER how you feel/regard yourself!!!...Do you understand what I'm saying?!?...HOPEFULLY!,..DONE!...PEACE!

random, very random!:))

...these posts are coming few and far between!!!...alot happening, going on...will fill ya in later...just wanted to get on here and peck a few lines just to get my thoughts going...beautiful Saturday morning...with a whole lot to do...fun stuff mostly...so my focus for the day is to get up, yes get up later and kick it in overdrive...got up wayyy too early...and now my sleep pattern is off!....things you enjoy doing shouldn't be considered "tasks"...so I won't call them that!...a schedule of events sounds a whole lot better...got my inspiration from a friend already...brought back good memories...so with all of that positivity surrounding me and in the air...I gotta run...but hey, at least I did post today!!...YAYYY ME!:))...HAVE A FAB ONE PEOPLES!!!..PEACE!

MY BROTHERS

busy, busy week...so much to write about...so little time!..Today is Father's Day!...taking this moment to recognize the power of the strong male influences in my life...First and foremost my Dad, Mr. Leon H. Carr, Jr...I could spend days writing about how wonderful and amazing he was/is...Missing him like crazy!..Rest peacefully Daddy!..We love and miss you EVERYDAY!..THEN, there are HIS sons...my brothers, Leon, the oldest...and Troy...the youngest...spent the past couple days with my brothers...my Baby Chanel graduated from high school on Friday...another blog to write!..but I wanted to stress the fact that for this occasion, although I achingly wished my Daddy could have been there...I had my BROTHERS!...NOT UNUSUAL...TO HAVE THEM BY MY SIDE!..just special at this point in my life to have them with me, supporting me, honoring me!...yep, they threw a BBQ yesterday...for ME!...TO CONGRATULATE ME FOR BEING A STRONG WOMAN..A GREAT MOM!...I QUOTED THEM!...they are simply amazing...and I Thank God for allowing me to have them in my life!...so on this FATHER'S DAY!...I WANT TO CELEBRATE THEM...SENDING A SPECIAL THANKS STRAIGHT TO HEAVEN WISHING MY DADDY A HAPPY HEAVENLY FATHER'S DAY AND MY LOVE AND GRATITUDE TO HIM ALSO FOR THE AWESOME JOB HE DID IN RAISING HIS BOYS...YOU SHOULD/WOULD BE PROUD DADDY!..THEY ARE STRONG, SMART, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY..THEY HAVE HEARTS OF GOLD, JUST LIKE YOU!!!!!:))...GREAT MEN, DESTINED FOR GREAT THINGS!...I'D BE LOST WITHOUT THEM.

what can I do?

when I "feel" it....I need to write!...I had a very deep, and most serious conversation with a friend of mine today...in the hottest sun I've experienced in a while...but his words were so captivating and the subject so interesting that I almost forgot I was sitting out in the hot sun!....not disclosing specifics, but the subject referenced humanitarianism....and although I am leaving out a lot, I want everyone to understand that the scope of this involved more than the "help or caring for" your fellow man....it embraced the idea that all too often we get so consumed in our everyday lives, that we don't stop and think about the well being of "others"...he understood it, I already knew it, but like I said we get so "caught up" in our own situations....our own problems, our own business!.....for me, it was a reminder!...a much needed one...and I came to the realization, that even though we may feel at times, that we have nothing to offer...there is nothing more precious or valuable than your own "time", "attention"...."presence"...he inspired me to do better, be better... there may never be a more perfect time than now to share the "gifts" God has given me/YOU....I pride myself on telling jokes...I can make you laugh!...I make myself laugh....and I guess the most important gift of all....the gift of "listening"....strangers have poured out their hearts to me, after a simple "hello, how are you?!?"....I believe myself to be a great listener!...sometimes, it does folks good to just get things off their chests....no feat too small....INSPIRED!...now I have to figure out where and when I am going to "reach out"....any suggestions would be great, and I have a few in mind already!...there's nothing more exhilarating or fulfilling than knowing that at some point in someone's life....you made a difference...signing off with the words of one of my Dad's favorite songs:
If I can help somebody
As I travel along
If I can help somebody
With a word or song
If I can help somebody
From doing wrong
My living shall not be in vain.
PEACE!:))

ANNIE BROWN!

Today I have the opportunity to write about someone that....I don't even know how to explain it...someone who has impacted my life undescribably!!...is that a word???...if not, it should be...TODAY IS MY MOMMY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!...MRS. ANNE E. B. CARR....the woman who not only has given me life...but, even at my age...has SUSTAINED IT!!!:))...IN TOO MANY WAYS TO MENTION!...My Mom gave birth to 4 kids...and since childhood, she has always made each one of us feel as though we could have been ONLY children...SHE has been there for each one of us wholeheartedly and simultaneously!!!!...I have no clue as to how she has done it...Even now, I tell her I pray that I have half the strength that she has.....Keeping within the WOMAN'S CODE OF ETHICS...I will not disclose her age....although, she probably would not care...due to the fact that she is in denial!...not that she doesn't embrace her age, it's just that she believes she can do whatever she sets her mind to...and I must admit, I have seldom seen her fail!!!!!!!!....Thank you Lord for blessing me WITH HER!!!...THERE IS NO BETTER GRANDMOTHER/MOTHER/WIFE/FRIEND/CONFIDANT/COMEDIAN/CAREGIVER/HUMAN!...ROLE MODEL.. IN MY WORLD!...TODAY I GET TO CELEBRATE MY PERSONAL ROCK AND MY FORTRESS!...WITHOUT HER, I WOULD BE NOTHING!...LOVE YOU MOM!...HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!:))...had to cut this short...an emotional topic!

PARENTS!,.... please teach your sons/daughters!!!!

WHY did I name this the title that which it is?!?...for one, didn't think I would be blogging this morning...two, I was angry!!!...woke up this morning peacefully, and as usual...probably thinking way too much more than of things that I shouldn't be!....on with it, so I am sitting outside...drinking my coffee...and I witness a little girl, maybe 3 or 4....running and screaming...on the playground...being chased by a little boy with a stick!...I'm two floors up ya'll....so jumping over the balcony...although compelled to do so....would not be a good idea!...AND he was gaining on her...luckily her little feet were faster than his, and the stick he was carrying must have weighted him down...Him, not being more than three or four himself....this is all happening within in a matter of moments...and luckily...he gave up....I'm appaulled!...where are the parents?!?...you cannot let these little ones run around unsupervised...Man, you can't even let some ADULTS run around UNSUPERVISED!!!...ordinarilly I probably wouldn't be writing about this...but it lends weight to a conversation that I had yesterday with a dear friend...not disclosing the details....but a husband who verbally abuses, mistreats, torments and abandons his family/wife is a whole lot worse than that little boy who chased that little girl moments ago...and we're talking adult folks...MY POINT...in all of this...we need to teach these little people while they are young...how to carry themselves, treat others and live productively in this world...granted, all lessons are not going to be learned or retained...but if the seed is planted in their mind...well, maybe they'll learn to "walk a little slower, and carry a smaller stick"!....Banter is done...for now!...HOPE ALL READING THIS HAVE A STICK FREE DAY!:))

MY "ME" TIME!

GOOD SUNDAY MORNING!!!...RISE AND SHINE...TODAY IS A NEW DAY!!!...LET US REJOICE IN IT!!!...so, I'm guessing Sunday Mornings are when I am feeling the most inspired...call it what you will...but I now have this ritual of grabbing my coffee and sitting on the balcony and CONTEMPLATING: contemplate- to view or consider with continued attention : meditate on ....LOL!...YEP, that's what I do...that's my moment among moments when I feel as though I need to reconnect with HIM... and actually "talk" to HIM!...ALTHOUGH, I am continuously "talking" to HIM with every move I make...and THAT'S THE TRUTH...I seek direction and guidance on a DAILY BASIS!!!...but, it's just something about Sunday morning where I feel as though HE is just focused on me!!!!...THAT'S MY STORY AND I'M STICKING TO IT!!!:))...this could be a very long blog today, cause my mind is weighted,..NOT with problems, worry,... but "weighted"!..DON'T WANT ANYONE ASKING WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?!?...I AM GOOD...just felt the need to write about "this" today!....but I think I'll try to keep it as short as possible...so I was thinking about my Dad, church, the work week ahead...a post I had read just yesterday about Church attendance...;))..YOU know who you are...and realize that going to Church, or more importantly, finding a church I am comfortable in...has been a challenge...I reflected back to yesterday and the "forecasted Rapture"...that didn't happen...at least to my knowledge...and realized that among the many things I had planned to do today...that wasn't one of them...OK, so this is a subject that I don't like to talk about cause...my faith, FOR THE MOST PART, is private to me...the battles I have in my head and in my heart...I CHOOSE not to disclose....and yeah, today will be no different...MY POINT....cause now I am a little uncomfortable...is that I remembered what my Dad used to say to us/ME!....We used to heavy/deep conversations about religion...I miss that....and even though we went to Church every Sunday....Sunday school, Vacation Bible Study...choir practice...etc...my point is, that at this point in my life...right or wrong...I am no longer battling myself with not finding a "sufficient Church"...meeting my standards...cause I heard my Daddy's voice in my head..."THE CHURCH IS IN YOUR HEART, GINA BEANA!"...."when you feel as though you really need to connect with him" in a "traditional fashion"....FALL TO YOUR KNEES AND PRAY!!!...NOT AN EXCUSE FOR NOT GOING...but I'm goin to get my "ME TIME", my one-on-one right now!...whew,...That's all.....HAVE A BLESSED DAY FAM...ENJOY!:))